author's note: right now i am so unhappy. have you ever felt like a total letdown? like the entire world would be better if you ceased to exist? that's how i feel right now. some of this is genuine sadness, but a big part of it is depression. and that can be difficult to handle. this is how i handle mine, but sometimes i feel like it isn't enough.
that frightens me.
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no one will miss me
no one will know
no one will fret
when i finally go
my son he is strong
my family will show
all the strength that i lacked
when i finally go
what use have i been
hurting those that i love
was i ever good enough
when push came to shove
so how would i do it
would it be fast or slow
well i wouldn't, so there
i guess we'll never know
i hate how i'm feeling
but surely you know
that i'll be an old man
when i finally go
i'll have done what i planned
and some that i've not
i'll look back and be thankful
for this life that i've got
and if you were in it
i want you to know
i'll thank God for your presence
when i finally go
